Confessions of a Wanna-be Wallflower

Hello, everybody. I'm Samantha and I'm an introvert. With the

connotations that go along with this word one would think it were

a bad thing. At first I fought it and then I went with it. I can still hear

in my head the tone in which my mother says my sister is such a social

butterfly. I enjoy social activities, but coincidentally my favourite

hobbies tend to involve doing something alone (sewing, gardening,

reading, yoga, DIY projects).  In high school, introverts aren't given

much of a choice, which probably explains some of the teenage

moodiness. There is less of this forced-socialization in university

- sororities and fraternities aside - and things begin to look up for

us introverts.  After university was difficult. I'm sure like many

others out there, it came as a bit of a surprise that it wasn't so easy to

land that dream job with that piece of paper you had earned confirming

your ability to learn that cost so much to get. I went back to waiting

tables and when serving groups of four or more, I stumbled on

everyday speech when I normally have no problem talking.

What if Baby wants to be in the corner?! 

All of this mumble jumble has to do with my new position

as a newspaper columnist. When I imagined myself writing, I

imagined myself, alone, typing away on the keyboard.  Well,

when I was little I imagined a pen and paper, but the times

have changed, haven't they? I didn't picture other people, I pictured

myself with just my thoughts, ideas, and whatever my imagination

could muster. Having a column that revolves around my new

community puts me out of my shell, there is the need for interaction.

It can be a bit scary sometimes to talk to strangers and having to be

the one to introduce themselves first.  I need to listen to the stories

of the locals and immerse myself in my new surroundings - that

doesn't happen if I hide at the back and keep to myself. Sometimes

you got to do what you don't want to do to get what you want.

This is one of those times.

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JoeFresh: Tights

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